Lecrae reminded me to share about my painful experiences with God’s own people.
Efe Johnson referenced Lecrae, this year, and I saw it on X.
I have been lied against by a church leader and punished to the point that I had to admit to an offence I didn’t commit. The lie of another church leader, a reverend to be exact, cost me a life-changing opportunity. I was abused by church people, in ways that only the devil’s own should operate.
I have gotten no justice, as far as I can see. I have cried and ‘crode’. I just recently began to regulate my anxiety levels better. Trusting people can be a chore. Sadly, healing from one incident has not meant protection from another. Recovery has cost me years and opportunities.
So the question is IF GOD’S OWN ARE EVIL, ISN’T HE EVIL TOO?
Honestly, I have struggled to understand why God allows His children to be so mean. I mean, He could have stopped their tongues or paralyzed their hands before they hurt me. And I cannot point at what I have done to deserve any of this.
After several years, I have reached a conclusion.
God’s children are still human, as human as other humans. The presence of the Holy Spirit is not the absence of their power to choose. A Yorùbá proverb states that the child of a lion acts like a lion but God is not a lion neither are we.
God is good but his children can misbehave. His goodness cannot be rubbished because of His disobedient children.
It’s really hard but I choose to dwell on God’s goodness, even if His children hurt me again. And He knows I need His help to achieve this.
PS: My heart cry is may I not be a steady stream of hurt for God’s children. May I not be a constant hurter of God’s beloved.